“Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he hath redeemed from the hand of the enemy; 3. And gathered them out of the lands, from the east, and from the west, from the north, and from the south. 4. They wandered in the wilderness in a solitary way; they found no city to dwell in. 5. Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them. 6. Then they cried unto the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them out of their distresses. 7. And he led them forth by the right way, that they might go to a city of habitation. 8. Oh that men would praise the Lord for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men!” Psalm 107:2-8
Shalom, wonderfully-made creatures of God!
I know, I know.. it’s been quite some time since I’ve blogged about my journey through Salvation. I’m kind of upset at myself.. 5 months!? *face palm*
Firstly, I want to apologize for being selfish.
Initially, as a newbie-in-Christ, you feel like you have it all together because HE does have you all together. Well that’s true, yes.. but it’s not in the way I expected. I was leaning on my own understanding and thinking I had to put up this façade (after having experienced being born-again and full of joy) before you see the raw, uncut, & behind the scenes type of relationship I was building with our Lord and Saviour. So I left off with things lookin’ kind of peachy. Truth be told, there is muuuuch tribulation we endure as Christians:
“Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God.” Acts 14:22
I knew I was now at war with the enemy, but nobody told me just how sneaky he can be! Comin’ up & tryin’ to take away my joy and keep me down.. thinking he could make moves in my life. The worst thing was trying to keep the LORD’s words from leaving my lips!
After all, God said, “This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success.” Joshua 1:8
So yeahhh I must admit.. I do have moments where all I can do is just curl up into a ball and cry because my head is so overwhelmed by the darts of the enemy. I literally feel like this picture👇
Satan has no dominion over us and he cant make us do anything or act on something that crosses us but he can inject those thoughts or your flesh can manifest them on it’s own. Either way, you’ve got to replace your mind with the mind of Christ and learn how to fight back with the word of God. Come on now, folks.. We are winners. Don’t be defeated, don’t give in, you alone may not have the strength to preservere but our LORD does, and He is our helper, He is our Comforter.
His joy is our strength!
Let’s recap what’s been going on:
So around the time I last published a post I was kicked out of my home because the lady I was staying with suddenly didn’t like me. It was like as soon as I became Christian, she hated my guts, cussed me out, tried to fight me etc. I wasn’t having any good news landing a job and I was just going through itttt.
I mean, I moved here without knowing Jesus and now that I know him, nobody likes me, wants to hire me, and all this junk gets poured on my lap? It was kind of confusing to say the least! I prayed my heart out, I asked God “why did you bring me here? If I’m supposed to stay in this city, I need a job by tomorrow or I’m gonna have to go move in with my mother in another state” The next day, I seen an ad for open interviews and I got hired on the spot. God is so cool like that!! The lady I was staying with cooled down a bit and was never there but had let me stay a little while longer. Then one day she came home and destroyed everything in her house, breaking TV’s, throwing dishes. Something in her spirit just wasn’t right and I could tell it wasn’t her anymore. She wasn’t like that when I met her just a few months earlier, she seemed to be going through a lot herself, and as much as I wanted to comfort her and tell her Jesus will perfect what concerns her, she wouldn’t listen to me. In short, I just knew I had to leave, but I didn’t know how I was gonna do this.
My job was cutting my hours now and I had no support from anyone in this new city, heck, not in any city at all. I was very alone. But the best blessings come in times like this. So don’t you worry! Somehow I had this peace that passed all of my understanding. The outside of me was wrecked lol I couldn’t sleep, I was losing hair(I chalked it up to some terrible shampoo), but on the inside, I just knew the LORD would come through for me. and He did..
I prayed for the girl and left.
During the time I was staying in a motel, my clothes got stolen by some druggies while being washed in the laundromat downstairs. I was able to receive at least my work shirts and a couple pants back by hunting them down and telling them how super un-cool it was of them, but I’d forgive them anyway.
My car had also been repo’d because I couldn’t afford my payments any longer so I gave it back and was relying on coworkers to hopefully pick me up and take me home. It’s always been hard for me to accept help because I usually feel like a burden. This is something I’m learning to let go of and just let God move!
I ended up (on the last day of being able to afford a motel stay) hearing back from a reply I put out on a craigslist ad for a room to rent. Praise the Lord! I moved in right away with just a couple trash bags of personal belongings. I had a few blankets I set down for some comfort on the floor that I was sleeping on because there was no way I could afford a bed at this point.
A week went by in my new home, and I just knew if I continued to be thankful, and pray for a comfortable bed to rest my head that he would show up and show out for me! I hit up a sister in Christ that I had met online and told her my situation, she sent me some funds for a bed! When I got ahold of the bed I was going to buy, the lady ended up cutting me a deal and giving me the entire bed set, with lamps and dressers alike. I had a real room.. I felt so blessed!
“Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Phillipians 4:6-7
It’s been a few months in my new home and quite a lot has happened here as well! I was having some financial burdens still and I even tried to venture off into becoming an entrepreneur but I didn’t feel right about the ungodly values that the company whom tried to mentor me, was instilling. I had to remember that our troubles are only for a moment and to give it all to God regardless and trust that he will make a way when I feel there is no way.
“For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;” 2 Corinthians 4:17
HE said he would perfect what concerns us, so I gave God back his word and told him what concerned me and trusted him to take care of me. He has sent financial blessings my way to afford my rent and bills in unexpected ways and I am so blown away each time.
Almost 2 months ago I had been praying hard for a car so I can get a new job. After I felt like it was hopeless for such a request, I figured I’d have to save for one and that would take awhile on top of all my bills and stuff but it’s okay. Then one after-noon I walked a couple miles in 110 degree heat to cash a check, and ended up with a blister on my foot, almost past out from the heat, didn’t end up finding a place to cash it after all, and no phone for anyone to call for a ride because my service was off.
Thankfully I got WiFi at a McDonald’s and found a way home. In the midst of this day, I didn’t lose faith in God and always know his ways are higher. So I praised him anyway and kept calm.
Shortly after I got home that day, I received a call that my friend whom I’ve met through the Lord( in such a divine way) said she is gifting me her old vehicle because she got a new one and that she feels it is from God to me ❤️😭.
Water-works came, of course! This is the Lord I serve! I’m so humbled. I don’t say this to boast, I say this out of pure humility. God is just SOO good! & to think saving my life was more than enough for him to do for me, he does this, too?!
I will rejoice until the day I’m called to Heaven and thereafter!
I ended up getting a new job being able to successfully commute now and I’m no longer worried over how I’m going to make rent and bills. He loves us so much!
One thing I want to leave you with, is this; PLEASE reach out to our Lord if you are weary, if you are burdened, or sad.. He says cast all your anxieties upon him, and that all things work together for good to those whom love God! He will save you from your troubles. Seek him and you shall find him.. Put him and his righteousness above all, and he will add everything you need after ✝️ because he hears us! Always..
Don’t second-guess his glory, I know it’s easy to feel discouraged when you’re held to the flame and when the layers of your old-self are melting away, it hurts.. I know. Especially after all this time when I had just myself to rely on, it isn’t easy learning to trust someone with my entire life.
But also take comfort in knowing that we are in gracious hands.
What I have learned is to Stand. Like. A. Tree. Even if it kills you.
Psalm 15:4 “In whose eyes a vile person is contemned; but he honoureth them that fear the LORD. He that swearteth to his own hurt and changeth not.”
Psalm 1:3 “And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.”
Looking back now, I noticed he answered a lot of my prayers, some in ways obvious, and some not. That’s just the way it is when you have a Father who looks out for your best interest.
I haven’t had good parent-figures in my life growing up and I especially didn’t have a dad. So being able to rest in His presence, quite literally eases my soul.
Sometimes I feel like a kid again, but only this time its like sitting on the lap of the person who loves you most while you look up into their eyes and feel their warm embrace.
Psalm 27:10 “When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.”
He’s got you. Wherever you are, whatever your going through.. He will heal you, love you, lift you up and sit you on His shoulders. You can see everything from up here, my friend… and all the bad stuff isn’t so big anymore.
P.S all the ailments in my warfare post have cleared up and I never went through deliverance. Although I believe that is still a very real ministry, The Lord delivered me on His own. Praise Him! I also no longer feel like the “lost puppy” in desperate need of discipleship. I have elders who are wise that I fellowship with from time to time if I have questions or concerns but above all, GOD’S GOT ME. I do have a couple more posts I want to publish about other awesome ways the LORD has kept his hand in my life, and I also plan to finish building my website with the worship music I love, scriptures, sermons, and services I suggest.